How odd life is that everything can change suddenly and inexorably. And even though you know it's coming, you can't imagine how life will just one day be so different. When you live alone with a dog, life can be so dog centric, that once that pet is gone everything is altered; no more walks, no more having to be home in time to give medicine, feedings, treats, no more snuggling in bed or watching TV. Life is just different.
For me, in Alvin's last year, I tried to memorize how it felt to hold is chubby little body, to have him hold my face with his paw, and give me a kiss. I wish for all the hundreds of times that he did his tricks that I had videoed them. Why didn't I tape them? It's as if the memories are slipping through my fingers and I want to make it stop.
Alvin outlasted two men; a marriage and a life long love. He calmly sat with me through asthma attacks while everyone else around us would be frantic. He knew what I needed better than anyone. We knew what each other needed. And when it came time to make our big move, Alvin was on the plane, screaming like a women, all the way to Florida.
It's only been a month and I feel like my life has changed so much and I should be weeping. But instead, life goes on. And honestly, when we love people, that's what we want right?
God, I loved that dog. My first dog. The best dog. Gone, one month, and one day now. Time just keeps moving.
For me, in Alvin's last year, I tried to memorize how it felt to hold is chubby little body, to have him hold my face with his paw, and give me a kiss. I wish for all the hundreds of times that he did his tricks that I had videoed them. Why didn't I tape them? It's as if the memories are slipping through my fingers and I want to make it stop.
Alvin outlasted two men; a marriage and a life long love. He calmly sat with me through asthma attacks while everyone else around us would be frantic. He knew what I needed better than anyone. We knew what each other needed. And when it came time to make our big move, Alvin was on the plane, screaming like a women, all the way to Florida.
It's only been a month and I feel like my life has changed so much and I should be weeping. But instead, life goes on. And honestly, when we love people, that's what we want right?
God, I loved that dog. My first dog. The best dog. Gone, one month, and one day now. Time just keeps moving.